Day 2. Walking.

Last night I worked night shift.
Today when I was trying to sleep work rang twice so needless to say I got very little sleep!

Today I walked around the river. Loved it.
40 min walking is better than nothing I say!

Several months on ...

I guess it is time to update again!

I dropped out of the challenge. Guess you guessed that. But my health was not allowing me to go at the pace we were heading.

But I miss how great I feel exercising.

So I have joined the gym again and am working at my own pace, with some guidance fromt he instructors.

And doing the couch to 5k again.

I just want to find 30min to an hour of exercise I can do. Every day. That's it.

Today's workout - 30 min on treadmill, C25K day 1 week 1.
10 min on xtrainer

Just on hold a bit ...

stupid asthma

I'm getting help. In the meantime I'm walking. And doing a little weights.

But while I'm waiting I'm starting a new blog. About what we eat. And why. And our journey to healthy healing foods

check it out

to--your--health.blogspot.com

I can ... I will..

I know I can do this.

I took the mantra from our motivational speaker the other night.

And I did.

I ran 5k.

It was slow. I was last. But I ran it.

I just want to cry!

Our speaker this week was Chris Clayton. I heard him speak two years ago. And he got me right where I needed him to back then.

Today, somehow, he did the same.

I've been thinking over the last few days of how I doubt myself. Of how little faith I have in my body and it's ability to achieve.

I know where it comes from. Years and years of being unhappy with my weight, of being the kid who would umpire the softball game so she didn't let her team down by playing.

Then the last four years. Infertility strikes back. Four years. Seven ivfs. No children surviving my womb. More children to hold in heaven than I could ever have on earth.

My belief in my body is pretty much zero.

And I need to change that.

Before I can try again. Before I can do another transfer I need to get my mind and body strong. I need to believe in my body again.

And not only for those reasons. Just because I want to live in this body for the next 60+ years. And I don't want to do that in self doubt.

I need to change. This challenge is helping me. But to truly do that - I need to believe in me.


"Change your thoughts and you change your world" Norman Vincent Peale.

I need to stop thinking "I can't" or "I'm the slow one at the back" and change my thoughts ... and my world.

"I can" "I will" " I know I can do this"

"I won't stop" "I will taste success" "I know I can do this."

There is no finish line.



One thought struck me tonight. I need to blow it up and put it on the mirror.

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new beginning" Carl Bard

My assessment ... and a catch up

I did not want to do my assessment.

For the 10 days before my assessment date I was struggling. I wasn't eating to plan. And we went away.

And you know what - I have a bit of an all or nothing nature. either I am trying to be perfect. Or I sabatage. And for a few days I was right there.

This is where my friends rock. If your friend is picking you up you HAVE to run. No choice.

And if you turn up ... somehow it seems you always work harder than you intended.

But yep - I was struggling. Cause I wanted to lose like FOUR kgs in the first month. And I knew I wouldn't. And I knew it was partly my fault.

So I went.

And lost 1.8kg. And yes - I am disappointed in that. And in me. But I think for the first time ever I am acknowledging that it was my choices that got me there. And my choices will change that.

And 1.8kg is still a loss.

So that is my assessment. 1.8kg down. 21 cm. And an attitude adjustment.

Oh - and Leanne says I doubt myself. That I don't believe I can do this. And she is so right. I need to work on that. Anyone know how though????

Suitably sore

This weights program is tough. Well I think it is. To do the whole thing in one go takes about 70-90 min (guess that depends how much you socialise too!)

I know I don't have time tomorrow. And today I do. So I did both (despite my initial intentions of just doing the upper body)

I am sore. Suitably sore. I worked H.A.R.D. and I can feel it!

Today's run ...

was awesome!

OK - I am still no where near a runner.

BUT

I was expecting it to be hard due to how sore I was feeling.

BUT

I remembered Leanne's words from my assessment last week (oops ! Still need to blog about that) and that I need to BELIEVE in MYSELF more.

So I went determined. I would have to go at my pace (can't ask miracles) but I would do what I was asked to do. And I did. I ran every bit we were asked to run. I did not walk unless we were told to walk. And I ran.

I am so proud of today's run. I feel like I went that little bit harder, and did not give in to those ugly thoughts.

When it got tough my mantra became "how sweet is success going to feel" over and over and over again.

And you know what?

It was.

Running for a cure.

Um - yeah. 5k fun run today. And me. Should be interesting.

But on that note - I have a TWELVE WEEK CHALLENGE SHIRT TO WEAR!

I am so stupidly excited. I have a shirt that is fitness related! ME! Guess it can compete with the millions that Paul owns.!

For the record ...

Leanna has hit a new level of insanity on the weights program.

It took Liz and I two hours to do it today.

(Although there might have been some talking there????)

I'm here ...!!!

To those who have asked ... I'm struggling a bit but I'm still here!

I've been away - at the Gympie Muster. Not exactly challenge friendly but I did my best.

I have lots to post about - mainly about my wierd self and how I cope with things.

But I wanted to say I AM HERE!

And I ran today. It was hard - but I did it!! I'm still swimming.

ch-ch-ch-changes!

Even after 2 weeks I am feeling CHANGES!
Here are a few ...

SLEEP - I am sleeping SO well at night. Insomnia has disappeared. I just crash at night.
MY SKIN - is so much clearer and it feels firmer too - less saggy ;)
MY WAIST is making a comeback
MY STOMACH is definately flatter. I've lost a lot of that "pregnant but not pregnant" look
I DON'T PUFF going up the stairs to the gym anymore.
THE RUNS seem a little easier at least. Just a bit. Pity she keeps making them harder or I might catch up one day.
MY THIGHS feel less jiggly. Seriously. That's the word for it.

And this is just two weeks in. Ten to go.

For the record ...

pulsing squats are cruel.

Just in case I forget this pain one day.

The end.

This week's workout plan - week THREE!

Halfway to our first assessment! ARRGGH!

Wednesday
AM - River Run
PM - Cardio - crazy boxer

Thursday
Day - Weights - crazy boxer
At home - treadmill 15m
PM - Cardio - crazy boxer

Friday
AM - Crazy boxer


Saturday
AM - Group activity. Circuit
Day - Weights - crazy boxer. Cardio (maybe)

Sunday
REST

Monday
AM - river Run
Day - weights (crazy boxer) and cardio (crazy boxer)

Tuesday
(TAFE recommences)
PM - cardio - crazy boxer

Week Two - summary

River Runs: two
Cardio (mellow yellow) -two
Cardio (crazy boxer) - one
Cardio (no program - treadmill etc) - three
Weights (mellow yellow) - three
Group activities - one - AQUA

Aerobics classes. Still none. This week. Maybe.

I wish I could bottle that feeling!

I won't lie.

The run was tough today. This running thing does not come easy for me. Every step I have to work at.

I felt I did ok today.

But the feeling I had when I finished ... and the JOY I felt all morning - that feeling of being TRULY ALIVE!

Can we bottle that???

Smiling from ear to ear.

Last time I did the challenge I was over the moon when I ran 30 min straight. At the 8th week.

Wednesday marks the end of week two for me.

And Today I Ran Thirty Minutes Straight. (on the treadmill - but still ...)

Right now I could take on the world.

What sort of person?

Runs UP the hills and walks on the FLAT parts??????

Insane!

Then I'm pretty sure she forgot the walk part.

And SPRINTING up Rodeo Dr?? (it's another HILL by the way!)

Today was tough. But in some ways it felt easier. Stronger. Wierd.

Stupid calf muscle is still giving me grief tho.

I feel like the little engine that could.

A new perspective on fast food ...

Paul and I were both tired last night. Neither of us wanted to cook. So we thought about picking up dinner.

Five minutes to think of something gluten free (for Paul) and challenge friendly for me. Fish and salad. So he goes to head down. "But what if they don't have salad"?

So I say "Just call me and I'll make some"

Then we both stop and think. And throw the chicken on the grill and make the salad anyway. Our food was faster and less effort than dinner was turning out to be.

Who says challenge food is boring???

Last night's dinner ... salmon steaks - grilled with the skin on (more omega's that way!), with a loaded plate of steamed vegetables.

Today's breakfast ... eggs, baked beans, lean ham grilled and coffee. See- I can still have my big Sunday Breakfast!

This week's challenge - to go to our health food store and see if I can order nitrate free ham and bacon there. And to buy some locally made tofu. It is SO much better than what you can buy in the supermarket!